je suis allé au cinéma avec mes copains et ma famille

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~Clarity, Zedd ft. Foxes [[Perfect dance song!]]
 
I wrote a poem last night at 1 am. Pretty much it's what I go through [almost] every time I cry. Here it is:
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I tell myself
Keep it together
Confusion, frustration
Shaking sadness, violent anxiety, bottled up anger
Waiting to erupt
I can only hold it in for so long
I can only break apart so many times
 
On the verge of crying
Eyes watering without my consent
Cheeks reddening by the second
Lungs and chest ready to burst
Corners of lips turning
Voice quivering, chin trembling
Hard to breathe
 
Gasping for a shoulder
Blubbering words of madness into the air
The world is cruel,
People are unfair
 
Heart loosening
Letting go of my flimsy grasp on sanity
Falling quickly into lunacy
Streaking face with the comfort of tears as hot as my anger
Salty tongue, ears drowning in cool droplets
Eyes apple red, heart feather light
 
Mind numbingly foggy
Grey, unclear, hard to think
Shame, humiliation, an open wound
A twisted sense
Of relief and happiness
 
Weak
Blinking wet eyelashes
No one can comfort me when I'm breaking down
 
Words as sharp and cutting as knives
Can only strike me so many times
Because my shield is stronger
Than their desire
To hurt me
 

 

 

 

 
#summer #spring #june #july #flowers #floral #bright #neon #pink #green #hotpink #nature #blonde

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~Heartbeats, The Knife {current fave song! check it out if you haven't....}
 
I just really love my life and want everyone who is currently in it to be in it for a long time and not leave/move away/etc.
 
#yellow #blue #summer #spring #beach #paint #fun #cute #printed #flowers #floral #prints #dress #flats #sunglasses #neon

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~Cult Logic, Miike Snow
 
Yay for another blog! Please let me know if you want to be taken off the list of people I tag, I really won't mind. I'd mind it more if I kept tagging you and annoying you. So please be honest.
Okay.... Let's see if I have anything interesting to say today.
 
+ Song of the Set: "Cult Logic" by Miike Snow. I love this song. Wow. Miike Snow is brilliant. If you don't know him yet then what are you doing? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nqCNXj3hsLE
 
+ I actually made a list of things to talk about. I've been keeping a list on my phone. Oh, and I've really been into lists lately. They're so helpful. I've gotten so much done because of them. And I love the feeling of "checking off" the things I've gotten done. Do you like lists?
 
+ My baby pictures. I just rediscovered my baby pictures. I almost started crying at how cute I used to be [what happened?]. I had wild crazy curls and big eyes and really light skin. I don't mind my skin color but I always wonder what it's like to be white or light-skinned. What is like? [Answer if you know the answer.] Also, do you prefer the way you look now or your baby-toddler self? I legitimately loved how I looked as a baby and I don't care if that sounds vain.
 
+ I'm kind of like Emma Watson in a way. I keep journals and diaries and notebooks and I have about a million of them. But what's interesting is that the older I get, the less I actually use my diary. It's funny. It's like the more I actually /do/, the less I write about it. The diaries I still have are my 3rd grade one, 7th grade, 8th grade, 9th grade...and now 10th grade. To be honest, my 10th grade one is the same as my 9th grade one. I remember I used to write pages and pages and pages in one single entry. I used to fear running out of pages for each year. I couldn't believe that I didn't fill up my 9th grade one and that I had half the diary left empty. So I'm using it for 10th grade now. Which, technically, I'm no longer in 10th grade, but more on that later. Anyway. I was thinking about that. I used to write [almost] every day in my diaries and now if I remember to, I'll write twice a month. The reason why this matters to me is that journaling/writing in a diary is one of the ways I cope with things. After writing it down, it clears my head and helps me work out problems. And the fact that I don't do that as much (on paper or online) says something. I used to be better at managing my emotions when I wrote more. And bearing in mind that I may or may not be developing #carpaltunnel or something from typing, it might be wise to start writing with a pencil/pen again or more often. Yeah. That's what I'll do.
 
+ Sorry to bore you with that last one. Moving on. Favorite drink of the moment: #sanpellegrino in the #limonata flavor. It's not even that delicious but it quenches my thirst and myyyy has it gotten hot here in California and yeah it's bubbly carbonated water. Mmm.
 
+ I found an AWESOME YouTube channel just yesterday. I love the vlogbrothers and their science shows and etc but I don't know about you but they talk reallyyyy fast for me. But their videos are still great. Anyway have you heard of VSAUCE? It's literally amazing. Watch this video, it was the first one I ever watched. And no, it's not really entirely about kissing. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ixQbCXLUUj8 He talks slow enough for you to understand but....not.....toooo..... slow.... That video really made me think and wow. Just wow. Watch it please and tell me what you think.
 
+ My goal this year has been to read 50 books or MORE and sadly I've only read 14 I think... Here's a breakdown of what I've read so far and my ratings.
 
-The Book Thief, 5/5 #readthisNOW
-Speak, 2/5
-Insurgent, 4/5
-The Summer I Turned Pretty, 0/5
-Delirium, 5/5
-Pandemonium, 3/5
-My Life Undecided, 1/5
-Pride & Prejudice, 5/5 #readthisNOW
-Life of Pi, 4/5
-Leviathan, 5/5 #suchagoodseries
-Behemoth, 5/5
-Goliath, 5/5
-Romeo & Juliet, 4/5 #thatwasbeautifullywrittenbillyshakespeare
 
+ The next books on my immediate-need-to-read are: Amy & Roger's Epic Detour, Requiem, and Northanger Abbey.
 
+ IT'S OFFICIALLY SUMMER! :) Yay for graduation parties, exploring, traveling, sleeping in (more), wohooo!!
 
+ That's all for today.... I probably won't have another blog thing up until next week since this week and weekend are going to jam packed with activity and fun and whatnot.
 
Okay, so bye! <3 OH and this blouse/top/tank in the set is so cute right? I drew it for fashion design and I'll have it on tumblr soon.

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~Power of Love, Gabrielle Aplin
 
Another blog thingy because I realize I have some more things to say and I can't wait an entire week. I've decided I'll do a blog thing whenever I have time...
 
(Should I number these things or no? Comment below with suggestions!)
 
---First and foremost, this song, but particularly the singer. Her voice. Is. Amazing. Don't take my word for it though, listen to her voice. She's only twenty but her music is so good, so refreshing. Her sound is like a lovely mix between Nina Nesbitt (but more angelic ahahaa) and Ed Sheeran and Shannon Saunders (who you should also check out because her voice is also wonderful!). LISTEN TO HER SONGS. My favorites of Gabrielle Aplin are the one in this set, Human, Please Don't Say You Love Me, Alive, and Home. http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3417F5998EE473F6
---In other news...it's summer! It's June! Yayy! I have so many things to do this summer (I initially wrote "many things to eat" ahahhaha).
 
---I've been having really legit-seeming dreams these days about going to random places like Singapore and Amsterdam. I have no idea why.I think ever since I got a real-real Instagram I've been doing more things, seeing more things and now my urge to travel is really high!
 
---I just tried Talenti Gelato icecream and it's quiiiiite delish. Have you tried it? Do you like it?
 
---This post is all about food, sorry. I rekindled my love for Nutella. I know that sounds stupid and bizarre but it's true. I don't even like strawberries (or "estroberis") but ever since I've started dunking them in Nutella, they are yummy and I kinda sorta love them now. Yay for #estroberis
 
---I bought BLK water. You've seen it on Tumblr. What is it exactly? NO IDEA AT ALL. But I'm afraid to try to it! It's alkaline water and it's supposed to really good for you so yeah I need to try it soon. #blk
 
---My shows Melissa & Joey and Baby Daddy are back! They're pure, cheesy goodness. @diegolohve Are you watching Mel & Joe?
 
---I'm really sad there are not many breaking-out female models right now with lots of pics. Oh, who follows Francisco Lachowski on Insta? HIS BABY IS SO CUTE. On the subject of babies.... Cope Land is so cute too!! She's this baby with huge eyes and her dad is the singer in Sleeping with Sirens. Also, do you follow Zhenya Katava? She's not my fave model but her little relationship is so adorable and she's very pretty.
 
---I have nothing else to say as of right now except that I am obsessed with TIM BORRMANN. Can you say unf? Oh my gosh, he's like my new Wynston! Speaking of Wynston, I drew a pic of him I'll have it on Tumblr soon.
 
kthxbai
 
#lavender #purple #pink #blue #periwinkle #spring #summer #flowers #floral #flower #barbarapalvin #gabrielleaplin #white #innocent #cute #pretty #butterflies #girly #print #butterfly

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I have things to talk about. I have things to say. Read. Please. Seriously, if you read all of this (or most of it) please comment!
 
---Firstlyyyy, this song. Mikky Ekko, can I marry your voice? I know the lyrics I put up are Rihanna's part but still Mikky is the one who makes the song what is is: pure awesomeness. Mikky, Mikky, Mikky!
 
---Next order of business. READ THIS IF YOU LOVE EMMA WATSON. Read this even if you don't love Emma Watson. http://rookiemag.com/2013/05/emma-watson-interview/ I literally feel like she is one of my most favorite girl celebrities, which I have very few of. I've never seen her in any move aside from Perks and Ballet Shoes, but wow...after reading her interview, I'm amazed! Kudos to her because I really don't like girl celebrities that much so yeah. Seriously, read it. I cannot stress this enough.
 
---Anddd...this is a funny thing I saw floating around the inter-webs...
"Amanda Bynes has changed her name to Da Bynes because she is a strong, independent woman who don't need Aman."
Wow. Anyway. I'm not gonna talk about her because she is currently classified under Trainwreck but once she becomes normal again (pleaseeeee do!!) I'll give this girl another chance.
 
---Nextly (I like making up my own words), if you've made it this far into this blog-style post, congrats to you. I feel like I have a lot to share. Anyway, The yellow in the set reminds me of CHILDHOOD INNOCENCE. That makes no sense at all but...it kinda does to me. The yellow is like the spot on color of Laffy Taffy and/or Lemon Now & Later and it brings back memories.
 
---Speaking of memories, I'm amazed by my memory. Not always in a good way. I remember things that people have forgotten, that I wish they hadn't, I remember things I SHOULD NOT REMEMBER AT ALL, and it's hard to get them out of my head. ANY TIPS AND TRICKS????
 
---Watch this video too, you'll laugh your head off. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U2VhqjVkL-0
Thank me later. The girl is hilarious.
 
---My summer "thing" this summer is gonna be painting! I used to paint all the time. Right now I'm into drawing and sketching but soon I'll be painting. I'm gonna post my drawings on Tumblr soon. What are your summer hobbies?
 
--Speaking of summer, I'm going to see Ed Sheeran and Sara Bareilles next month in concert.
 
---Also, if you haven't yet discovered the beauty that is TROYE SIVAN, you must do so now.
 
---I just read "Romeo & Juliet." All I can say is WHAT??!?!?!?
 
---Which name do you like for a girl?
Cyle (pronounced Kylee)
Arden
Karra (pronounced Car-uh)
Neomi (pronounced Nay-oh-mee)

And if you have any out-of-the-box but hot guy names, please let me know!
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That's all for this week. If you like these posts, I'll make them weekly! I haven't really blogged in like 37,000,000 years so it feels nice! Also I "got in tune with nature" this week by going to the beach and the lake a lot so my mind is clear and not down-in-the-dumps anymore.
 
#neon #yellow #green #turquoise

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~Icarus, Bastille {{Listen to this song! I love the guy's accent when he sings the words "....just begun" omggggg so perff. Great understated band!}
 
Me voy a la playa a mañana. The fact that I live so close to the beach and the amount of times I actually go to the beach is appalling. #yay #beach #funtimes
 
#summer #beach #fun #style #fashion #summer2013 #spring #may #ocean #denim #blackandwhite

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~Sunset, The XX

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~Young & Beautiful, Lana Del Rey
 
What's this stuff about yahoo buying tumblr?
#enlightenme
Anyway. I was really extremely stressed and depressed yet well-dressed a few days ago, namely Friday. It was a horrible horrible time for me. I have these three huge burdens on my mind right now, all very life-chaning, deep burdens! Decisions! I'm so bad at making decisions.... One decision involved my career/job/education, one involves my future/family/etc and the other involves my vanity/appearance/face. The last one is kind of shallow, but it just so happens to involve my health too, making it not as shallow. Oh well. I'm done worrying. I'm just tired of everything. I'm going to forget about everything for a few days, clear my
mind. Happy thoughts.
 
My thoughts & prayers are with everyone going through a hard time, esp those in Oklahoma. I hope everyone is safe.
 
Also, I have an iPhone 5 and I hate it...it's so long and annoying. #spring #summer

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~You Keep Me Under Your Spell, Desire [[this song gives me chills at the FOREVER EVER part]]
 
RANT. NOT A MAJOR RANT. BUT KINDA. Okay. I don't rant often *pat on my back* so here it goes.
AUGUSTUS WATERS has been cast (Ansel Elgort, a mightyyyyyyyy unattractive person if you ask me #sorry not sorry)as the SAME KID who plays TRIS'S BROTHER, CALEB PRIOR in Divergent. DO YOU SEE HOW WRONG THIS IS?!?!!? First, Shailene is gonna play Tris Prior in Divergent....her brother's gonna be Ansel Elgort. THEN A FEW MONTHS LATER, she's gonna be making out with him in The Fault in Our Stars?!??! I WOULD NOT EVEN MIND IF THE ACTOR WAS CUTE. But he isn't. He's not that other reallyreallyreally hot guy who everyone wanted to be Augustus. He's this little Ansel kid. No. No. Ugh. HE'S NOT JOSHUA ANTHONY AND THAT MAKES ME CRY. And who the bleep is Shailene Woodley in the first place to be playing these amazing characters?
AND I KNOW what John Green said on his tumblr about it but I don't care.
Rant over.
Feelings will be now be repressed.

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~22, Taylor Swift
 
OKAY. I HAVE SEEN THE MOVIE*. I HAVE CRIED THE TEARS. I have tried at least, I have been left extremely unmoved! :( So sad... I thought I was going to get really emotionally involved but I just couldn't? Like why don't I feel like it's the GREATEST MOVIE OF ALL TIME? I'm not overwhelmed with emotion or excitement or the evangelical zeal that John Green mentions in TFIOS....you know what I mean? Oh well, it's not that big of a deal. Still... RDJ was so perfect! <3
 
*Iron Man 3